An Indian Girl: Free of Beliefs or Self-imposed Psyche of Subjugation by Kruti Desai

An Indian Girl: Free of Beliefs or Self-imposed Psyche of Subjugation

Being an Indian girl child is become quite difficult for every girl as it comes to conclude only at a single perception of traditional and obvious expectation of society as well as family members. India, now an independent country, developing one too but the convictions of people who belong to rigid and orthodox upbringing can’t let someone do as per their own need and contentment, especially when it’s a Girl. Though the present article doesn't centre on a single matter of female suppression in male patriarch society but these ostensible civilized and undoubtedly educated people remain stills the level of getting free of impression isn’t in the stable strata. It is an urge to explore the thought process of female society, going wrong with Narrow Perception of being Supressed.

Though the legendary beliefs are existed only because of those who allowed others to suppress them and enforced them to remain subservient in any society, culture or stream. It's a psychological fact that many people like to be submissive and so called obedient to their made masters, would have rule like anything and come to be a tradition for the rest of all. It's not only for females or for a particular gender but it's an exterior factor for all the respective who apply their fake alacrity of being devoted and get lost forever!


However, a girl can expect sympathy, love, pity but not freedom according to many While attending school, a girl always taught how to talk to others, how to maintain discipline, what to do to keep in touch with others but not to be free of fear to express without faltering. I have observed many school children who got nervous and numb when they need to talk to male teachers and male students, it’s also true that in some cases, girls get more liberty and freedom to be within male groups to maintain their sophisticated high standards. But the reality is different with the issues of upbringing and atmosphere when parents used to expect them to be conservative and keep themselves in limited social circle.

Many of these girls suffer a lot when they have to express and present their selves in front of many, enduring lack of confidence and feel disbeliefs for own progress and abilities. Thus the problem of Indian Psyche is not just a matter of the vision toward the upbringing of a girl child but the aftermaths of their exposure and actions too which affects the male students equally in the manner of expressing conveniently.

At primary level, the notion and the way of treatment given by the teachers is much more prominent especially when it is of participation in various competitions. The Non-Field Competitions are adequately motivated by teachers to girls as they’re sufficiently capable in literary area and not in the other field-exposures according to many fanatics. It's their unfortunates who think in a scanty bay and didn’t allow the most representable and active students of various stream both in sports, technical as well in different competitions.

I have faced many issues of being one of the permissive and liberal girl of my class and to react confidently without thinking twice. It was one of my weak points according to few, which later on I came to realize that my teachers played an important role in moulding my character and made me capable of being one of the confident, firm and well-formed personality. Being a girl from interior developing village, it became too difficult for me to cope up the primary activities troubling with many barriers of financial and social struggle occurred throughout. Economically my family could hardly bear my schooling and stationary provisions. Fortunately, I was a sincere and well to do student, did much better than expected. I earned satisfactory scores finally with the support of my parents and dears but it couldn't be a conclusion.

This discrimination of power vs. knowledge, ability vs. dominance, willingness vs. Insatiable leisure. Issues actually I faced after got admitted in a college which was far from my home and it took more than an hour to reach. Such suffocation of travelling from bus and auto-rickshaw began in the early morning till late eve with different people and unknown faces of forbidden minds. The way they look at the female remain the worst endurance. The way they take seat and how they offer others a seat or space, was quite disgusting. Educating myself in a girl’s school, it was a rough idea to reach a pure conclusion of whether I would be the same at multi gender College as I was in the school of Only girls.

I dropped the idea of being alone or suppressed myself but I allow myself to fly in that open sky where I could do anything, where I could find the wings to reach beyond without that discrimination of psychological barriers which I observed earlier in many schools . Luckily I wasn’t in those schools of total restriction for being expressive and diverse. But later when I met many male students and teachers during my higher studies, for whom my personal experience made me rethink for the formation of Indian Social norms and notions.

The typicality of thought process for rigidity of even selection of vocational courses was also a serious matter for both girls and boys who were under pressure of constant observation by so called well-wishers.  A prefixed extent of elderly mind to follow certain courses and educative degrees by girls especially lead individual to supress and hide their talent and interest for actual area to delve. I select the one which I was interested. I took the area called Arts where I could find a way to express and represent this hypocrite society by using different genres of literary terms. I could write and read much better than those of restricted minds. This proved perhaps the best opportunity for me and my career as an author and poet which I feel flourished and nourished with the span of years.

Conclusion made up of many streaming issues of difference between gender, education, marriage, high-law class society, casteism, reservation policies and many more couldn’t reach any end as it’s the deteriorating condition of Indian society full of hypocrites and whited sepulchre. I have observed many people competing themselves with unknown challenges to win the same unknown outcome. To bear the situation, many have already applied misconception of manipulating by showing self-satisfaction and suffering their inner will.

Being a directive and path maker for many, as an author, I have started to observe the world and crisis in different way and have accepted it as a challenge. Particularly in COVID ERA, when people are losing hopes and aspirations, as a responsible writer I have begun to think on the tradition of instability in certain order which was stated before centuries when there were no technology and science itself. The only way to find a satisfactory identity is to have peace of mind and not to compete oneself. People are striving for their lives in this fickle flying period.

The only way to get the destination of heavenly abode called Ecstatic Arrival can be get by the selfless efforts without following any discriminating criteria and creating gaps between humans, harming the Mother Nature and Globe and by avoiding the so called ranking system to achieve the First.
I came across many hurdles while practising various changes and challenges which I could hardly bear with the bitter experiences and compromising with circumstances. Sometimes I had to look into past to recreate those worst experiences to foreseen the future capabilities to get cure and find a certain solution.

No fixed mind can make fixed belief of being a pure and individual identity, limited from nothing that control and diverse..